TarraLovesChocolate

You were never there, You left me when I was young. I cried tears every night you made promises. Stayed up all hours, waiting for your arrival. Hoping every time, that this time would be different. Now your life is falling apart. You call daily... not once.. not twice... but over a dozen times. Texting every couple hours. But where we're you? And now where am i? because you wont be there to hurt me again.

So, I have been super busy. But in the last couple weeks, I have learned a lot about myself. New York is now... a no go. Things change and so is my life. I'm staying where I am because that is what is ment for me at this point in time. I have been going to church now; never thought that would happen. But my bestfriend has talked me into it, and I havent been happier. I'm noticing more and more changes about myself lately. All good ones I think. I'm smiling alot more, and learning a lot more. Some bad things have been happening, but not enough to even phase me. So thats a little update/change thing to my couple posts before. I don

So its 4:30 in the morning. I woke up due to a weird dream. Not scary but then again it was. Basically, I was in an attac. But something was in there that i couldnt see or really explain. But i knew i had to get out somehow. So there i was climbing out of a window. And i fell. But i didnt fall to the ground outside. I had a alice in wonderland moment. I fell into this strange place. I knew the person there, and in all honesty this person scares the daylights out of me. But i was talking to them normally, and i was myself and they were talking to me as if, i was someone different. Like they didnt know who i was. And all i wanted to do wa